The Lutzblog

08/29/25 | Bluesky enters another dancing plague

I hate exposing my followers to transphobia even to debunk a post, but we need to be careful about spreading misinfo these days. Joey Mannarino has despicable opinions, but no reach. Entering death spirals every time some talking head says something stupid will only demoralize us. People make wild claims. Fact check EVERYTHING. Don’t believe anything unless it’s proven true. Doomposting is a trap. It has a destabilizing effect that makes it impossible to do anything, even taking care of daily tasks. I will mute you if I see you doing it. Consider the idea that concern trolls are aware that many LGBTQ ppl have mental health issues (myself included) & are taking advantage of your anxiety by spreading propaganda that destabilizes you. Do not let them live rent free in your head. The calls often come from inside the house.

You will never get rid of my purple haired, pronoun having ass. You will be forced to gaze upon my Y2K button up flame shirts. You will call me “sir” when I’m facing away from you & get flustered & say “uhhh I mean ma’am???” when I turn around. You will behold my glory when I’m shopping at Walmar.

08/26/25 | Alex watches weird gory anime

Watching the Fist of the North Star movie because I'm in the mood to watch some over-the-top gory action and anime bodily yuckiness. Damn not even 5 minutes in and we have a city full of people melting, this is gonna be something else. Wowee imagine sticking one finger out and poking your friend in the chest so hard it goes all the way through his body.

08/22/25 | Birthday

Oh lawdy. On Saturday, I am going to be thirty two years old. I used to think I wouldn’t make it to 21. Being over 30 and able to function without being in a constant state of mental breakdown is a dream I thought I’d never see to fruition, but I’m living it. The world is in a chaotic and difficult state of flux at the moment, but I carry on.

A pattern that has featured in my life since I was 13: When I am facing high levels of stress and chaos in my life, I get really, REALLY into death metal. Right now it’s Autopsy. I am obsessed with how surreal & putrid their sound is. It has the same atmosphere as a weird nightmare. I’m in love. I was telling my husband about Autopsy and I described them sounding like “a torture chamber in a sewer with guts on the floor but in a good way and it’s somehow really goofy” and he was like “haha I’m glad you’re having fun”. Btw if anyone knows of old school death/doomy metal bands from the late 80s/early 90s that have a surreal and gruesome sound, hit me up. I already know about Obituary, which is in the vein of what I’m talking about, but if you have more recc’s I’d love to hear them.

08/17/25 | Yet I remain Silly

No amount of horror and pain this world throws at me can ever stop me from being weird and silly. If you cut my arms off and tossed me in an oubliette, I’d still be drawing stupid creatures on the mold-encrusted wall with my bloody stumps.

08/16/25 | Return of the Kings

NOOOO WAYYY! One of my favorite bands, Coroner, is going to be releasing a new album for the first time in 32 years. Their most recent work, “Grin,” came out the year I was born. They just released a new single!! YES!!! IT’S AWESOME!!!! AAAH! I’m losing my mind. Coroner has been one of my fave bands since I was 14. I would have been happy with their body of work, but I always hoped they’d cut a new album. My birthday is next week & this single is like a bday gift, Christmas, and 420 all rolled into one. YAAAAAAAY! The album “Dissonance Theory” comes out October 17. I’m going to be watching that release countdown like a hawk and marking it on my calendar. If you’re a metalhead who’s hugely into technical thrash like I am, keep your little ears out for it. They’ve always made weird, mind melting music.

08/16/25 | Use the interwebs

If you are concerned by the rapid enshittification of platforms, like I am, I strongly suggest making your own website and putting all of your stuff onto it. You may not have a huge audience, but you have full control of what you put on it & it can look however you want. The freedom is great. If it’s possible, find someone who can help you with coding. My bestie Pearlnight is helping me code my own website. If you don’t have one, learn HTML and CSS. W3Schools is a godsend. It might take a bit but it’s doable. Take back your freedom. Make your voice heard on your terms. Get on Neocities. Get out from under the boot of huge platforms that can change everything in a split second! I can’t stand the instability of social media, which is why I can’t rely on them. This also happens to be why I don’t freelance. When I don’t know where my next paycheck is coming from, I get brainworms. Clearly a website is not a substitute for having a shoutbox like a platform, but think of your site as your little home. Go out to the socmed village & share the word, then direct them to your stuff and let them have a look around. there’s so much more to the net than shouting into an algorithm.

08/12/25 | Purging some crap

Did some hardcore cleaning. My husband helped me set up my new loft bed. I put a bunch of stuff under there for storage. I have a floor again! Got rid of one of my bookshelves bc it was literally falling to pieces & tossed my old dresser bc it’s dissolving too. My room is finally presentable yaay! I still need to vacuum & organize some stuff on my other shelves, but it’s a night and day difference. My mattress was on the floor with very little walkable space. It was a depression nest, no other way to describe it. Btw if any of you are wondering why there’s only one twin bed in here and I’m calling it “my room”, even though I’m married, it’s bc I have severe sensory issues that make it impossible for me to share a bed. We’re both autistic & having our own caves keeps us sane. I’m happy with it and so is he.

08/11/25 | Random nuisances

Every time I get irritated at unmonitored children running rampant around a store, I remind myself that I don’t have to go home and deal with kids of my own. I will never regret my decision to be childfree. Every time I see the diaper aisle, I think “look at all this money I don’t have to spend!”

07/26/25 | "I want all those kids OFF! THE! INTERNET!"

Quit giving your kids unmonitored internet access. Cyberspace is not and has never been child friendly. I’m sick of platforms being forced to censor adult content because someone’s iPad baby “might” see it. God forbid they see a queer person. Oh no!!!! I don’t go on social media very much anymore because every time I pop my little purple head out of my hidey hole, something absurd is happening because conservatives make up new things to have moral panics about and foist it upon everyone else. It’s very tiring. Every time a mass moral panic breaks out, it inspires a thriving underground scene. Hopefully it’ll be the case this time. Lovely how censorship is getting out of control as I’m preparing an extremely gross horror comic that has gay sex in it! Oh well lmao they can’t stop me.

06/09/25 | My Bestie is Free!

My best friend finally left her emotionally abusive girlfriend, and on Pride Month no less. I’m so proud of her!! I’ll be the first one to tell you that leaving an abuser is very, very hard. They’ll worm their way into your brain and get you to think horrible things about yourself. I am so thrilled and happy to watch her grow and thrive now that she’s finally free!! It’s been a few days & we both feel so much better. I was close mutual friends with this person & she’d been bullying me too, so it was a dual-fisted breakup. Lots of emotions lately bc we’re unpacking the whole thing, but we’re far more stable and happy! I’ve been drawing more regularly too.

06/05/25 | Situations

Something I’ve learned over the years of struggling with my mental heath is that your life will immediately improve once you stop engaging with people, places, and things that are bad for you. It sounds so simple, but i used to recreationally doomscroll & hang out in spaces with putrid vibes. You often don’t realize how much something has been bothering you until it’s no longer a part of your life. Sometimes you’ll feel trapped in a bad situation because you worry that leaving will have social repercussions. Maybe it will, who knows—but the discomfort of walking away is better than being bullied into staying with people who don’t respect you.

06/05/25 | Injury Update 2

After being given the runaround from workers comp for weeks, I had my first physical therapy appointment for my elbow today! The PT says my nerve inflammation is mild & easily treatable. Crazy how a month ago I was having a huge breakdown about not being able to draw & now I’m almost back to normal. I’ll be going twice a week for a month and a half. I am looking forward to the night I won’t have to strap my elbow into a splint, I miss sleeping in the fetal position!!

06/03/25 | Website Update

I am working on my Neocities site because I haven’t touched it in ages. I’m creating a gallery of my work, much of which hasn’t been posted anywhere in public! I’ve been needing a permanent repository for my art for a long time. My bestie Pearl helped me put together the code!! I’ve been posting way less now that I have actual friends and don’t feel the need to use social media as a dopamine dispenser. The downside is that people don’t get to see my art very often. Pretty soon everything will be in one place and it’ll be my very own little corner! I’ll post the link to the site once I’m done putting it together. My plan is to make the design fun while still being accessible and easy to read.

05/14/25 | Injury Update 1

THE DOC SAYS I’M OKAY TO DRAW AGAIN!!! I’m not at 100% yet, but she said I should be okay as long as I take breaks. She actually said “you have to draw at least a little, you’ll go mad!” And I said “YES YOURE RIGHT, I HAVE BEEN”

05/02/25 | Injury

Hey guys, I haven’t been active or making art in a few weeks. I oughta tell you why. I’ve been having arm pain from a work injury. Yesterday I was diagnosed with ulnar nerve neuropathy, which is a fancy way of saying I hurt my funny bone! Luckily it’s not serious & I should be ok in a few weeks. The whole time I thought it was a strain or a sprain in my wrist. Urgent care said the same thing. I was confused that the pain was moving and was worried my wrist getting worse. I was focusing on the wrong joint. it was nerve pain that was traveling down my arm via my inflamed ulnar nerve. It’s such a relief knowing exactly what it is. I’ll start physical therapy as soon as workers comp goes through.

04/09/25 | Save your shit NOW

Happy to report that I’ve backed up all of my art files from the past 7 years onto an external drive! If something happened to my iPad and I lost all of my artwork, I would scream SO loud and probably die. Multi-terabyte external hard drives are pretty cheap nowadays, so get one and save your work.

Date	Description
9-05/06-2025	Expanded the http exhibit on the Link page.
9-01-2025	Spruced up the CSS for halloween eve.
8-31-2025	Expanded the http exhibit on the Link page.
8-30-2025	Added some new links and my Bird Photos!
8-28-2025	Starting work with Archive.org and Archive.ph.
8-28-2025	Reskinned CSS for dark mode and prices/TOS.
8-22-2025	New fonts. Meet Space Grotesk and Roboto.
8-21-2025	Added some links.
8-20-2025	Added a page for commission prices
8-16-2025	Redid the homepage a little.
8-09-2025	Merged the lutzblog and links onto the directory.
8-06-2023	Crossposting bluesky posts here for archival.
8-05-2025	NEW COMMISSION POSTED TO THE COMMISSIONS PAGE!!!!!!!!! HE'LL YEAH!!!!!!!!!!! I also added a True and Honest shitpost to the sketches page. It's the best thing I've ever drawn lmfao
8-04-2025	Added a section for Geocities sites on "Links".
8-03-2025	Added some "new stuff" banners.
8-02-2025	I added descriptions and shit to my gallery pages. It took a while because Pearl had to format it so it didn't look like an abortion.
6-10-2025	Site overhaul!
5-1-2023	General housekeeping.
5-1-2023	Added an about page.
4-30-2023	Fucked around with the code.
4-30-2023	Created this website.